我的breaking人生

Ruel好像已經很久沒有出新歌了，而且我也很少關注他（嗚嗚，他不再是我的最愛了）

可能是因為他的鬍子吧（喂），但我還是一直在聽他的歌，我很喜歡他的歌詞裡總是對長大或是對未來的迷惘或是困惑，很容易就能產生共鳴。

他一開口我就果斷把這首歌加入歌單了，他的聲音有一種讓我感到很安心又熟悉的感覺。

他並不是說長大是一件可怕的事情，他只是說這樣感覺很奇怪。

我一直都很害怕長大，但是在成長的過程中，我也是體會到了很多新奇的感受，的確像他說的，仔細想想是很怪異。

但我想這就是人類生活奇妙的地方吧，要學習和成長中的自己共處。

〈Ruel - GROWING UP IS ____〉

[Verse 1]
Heard you moved out of town on the weekend
聽說你周末搬離了這座城市
Understand, but I'm sad that you’re leaving
我能理解，但還是對你的離去感到難過
Are you up making friends with the ceiling?
你已經交到數不清的朋友了嗎？
Yeah, I know the feeling
是的，我知道那種感受
I wasn't trying to let you down
我試著不要讓你失望
I was just working my shit out＊
我只是一直在努力解決我的問題
I'm sorry I didn’t know how much I led you on＊
很抱歉我並不知道我對你有多大的誤導

[Chorus]
Growin' up is weird, sleep with friends, break a heart
長大成人是一件怪異的事，友情變質，經歷心碎
Question everything you thought
質疑一切所想
Split a pill, smoke a dart＊
切開藥丸，學會抽菸
Growin' up is weird, fall in love for a year
成長很怪異，墜入愛河不到一年
And then I disappear, wish that you were here
就開始感到失去自我，希望在我身邊的是你
Growin' up is strange, get too close, push away
長大成人是一件奇怪的事，變得靠近，又想遠離
Thinking you would do the same
我想你也會做相同的事
No regrets, no mistakes
沒有後悔，不曾犯錯
Growin' up is strange when the one who's to blame
長大很奇怪，當那個應該承擔一切責任的人
Is lookin' at the mirror, wish that you were here
就站在鏡子前面看著自己，希望你在身邊
Growing up is—
成長是——

[Verse 2]
Get emotional at two in the morning
情緒化的凌晨兩點
It's a habit, know I shouldn’t be callin’
已成為習慣，我其實知道不該打給你
Then you let me in, is that what you wanted?
但你還是接納了我，這是你想要的嗎？
Is this what we wanted?
這是我們想要的嗎？
Now you're back in town, no, I can’t come around
現在你又回到城裡，不，我不能回心轉意
Are we better without the what ifs and doubts
若我們拋開擔憂和懷疑，是否會變得更好？
Is this it?
會變好嗎？
Are we both too far gone to forget
我們是否都經歷了太多而無法遺忘
And try again?
也無法再次嘗試？

[Chorus]
Growin' up is weird, sleep with friends, break a heart
長大成人是很怪異的感覺，友情變質，經歷心碎
Question everything you thought
質疑一切所想
Split a pill, smoke a dart
切開藥丸，學會抽菸
Growin' up is weird, fall in love for a year
成長很怪異，才相戀一年
And then I disappear, wish that you were here
我就感到失去自我，希望在我身邊的人是你
Growing up is strange, get too close, push away
長大很奇怪，靠得太近，又拒人於外
Thinking you would do the same
我想你也會做相同的事
No regrets, no mistakes
沒有後悔也不會犯錯
Growin' up is strange when the one who’s to blame
長大成人是一件奇怪的事，特別是當自己成為那個該被責怪的人
Is lookin' at the mirror, wish that you were here
只能看著鏡中倒影，希望你能在我身邊
Growin' up is—
長大是——

[Bridge]
Wish that you were here (Oh)
希望你能在這裡
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh (Wish that you were here)
（希望你能在這裡）

[Chorus]
Growin' up is weird, sleep with friends, break a heart
長大成人是很怪異的感覺，友情變質，經歷心碎
Question everything you thought
質疑一切過往視為理所當然的事
Split a pill, smoke a dart
切開藥丸，學會抽菸
Growin' up is weird, fall in love for a year
成長很怪異，墜入愛河不到一年
And then I disappear, wish that you were here
很快就對感情失望，希望你能在我身邊
Growin' up is strange, get too close, push away
長大成人是一件奇怪的事，變得靠近，又想遠離
Thinking you would do the same
我想你也會做相同的事
No regrets, no mistakes
沒有後悔，不曾犯錯
Growin' up is strange when the one who's to blame
長大很奇怪，當那個應該承擔一切責任的人
Is lookin' at the mirror, wish that you were here
看著鏡子裡的自己，希望你能在這裡
Growin' up is weird
長大成人很奇怪

[Outro]
Oh, yeah, yeah, hey
Oh-oh, then I just disappear
而我就這麼消失了
Ooh-ooh, will I just disappear?
我會消失不見嗎？
Wish that you were here
希望你能在這裡
Growing up is—
長大是——

（英文歌詞和圖片來源：https://genius.com/Ruel-growing-up-is-lyrics）

有幾個地方我做了註解「＊」：

* work sth out 理解、解決 / 出現轉機、使...好轉

* led sth on 是指沒有給足夠對方所需的資訊，讓對方相信某件不可能的事在未來會發生（通常都用在感情方面）

* dart 在澳洲是代指香菸的用語之一